long time no blog...

hahaaa....aint my life getting boring man.... n i tot army was boring man...but actually work is worse.... they cant reali give u alot stuff to do as all require exp n knowledge.... stuff they can give u do = sai kang.... lol...cos they wan to do e more impt stuff.... which is quite funny some times.... they come all e way to e room to tell me they nid a file explain to me n stuff which i tink e timetaken they could have taken it liao...or mayb i shd give them my number n reali become delivery boy liao... haha... tink i cant stand it 4 long man...e ppl is nice but e job is boring... tink going to ask if i change to part time den can have time 4 other stuff.... haha...clean my hse... i have finish my room more or less... except e big plastic boxes 4 storage under my bed... haha... o ya... a new tv... lol... or mayb nvm...next year studying den i tink oso wont play so much...
hmm... feel abit nostalgic at work man...kind of got a few similar thing to tekong life... lol...cos it Hr.... nvm tt...

hmm...its reali difficult to get everyone together once u out of sch n ppl move on in their lives man... or mayb i dun have enuff persuasive power...sad... hmmm...still tinking if i have a birthday party would anyone actually b there man.... sian... haha...tinking shd even plan anot...
hmmm let tink of smth happier...lol...hmm...ok nth exactly...haha....hmm lose abt 50 bucks in mahjong in recent games omg.... tt is alot.... mus play wif noober ppl first liao sia... lol...
haha...its someway nice to see my blog being so invisible... cos it reali become like diary den a place ppl read n use e stuff i wrote as evidence or smth one in e past...zzzz...haha nw is so quiet...
mayb becos i cut off alot of contacts when i jus enlist....lol... msn windowsused to b filling e bot of e monitor... nw... haha.... hmm sopcast? haha...female interaction drop at least 90% males... e opps ba...

haha... i wan to take tis chance to say i sorry to alot of ppl ba... words tt i hurt ppl.... things i done... things i dint do... chance i dint give....haha...recently would b wif shari ba... hmm...well time flies... known her since she was sec 1, tt would b 4 year plus? haven being abt to tok to her enuff in recent 1 or 2 years....which make my impression of her...hmm...when she was still sec1? haha.... which is tt veri good la to say e true... so there is tis distrust n lack of faith...n most of e times we dont tok till she nid a favor from me or smth... other den tt she jus seems to disappear.... so tt kind of makes it worse... could have being a better brother if i have understand her more n tok to her more ba.... haven being able to tok to her nw 4 long cos her seems so bz wif so much stuff happening 4 her... n i couldnt reali help her... kind of sad.... hmmm....hope it can get better ba... haha... hopefully....

haha...something less serious....lol.... my pay is quite chui...hahhaa... cos its 3wks de ba... i hope...LOL...next one can look better plz.... haha... so i tink beetles rockband is a goner.... haha... hmm... fifa 10 is out... so its e time again.... fifa or pes.... though i get more enjoyment out of fifa cos it offer more stuff den pes...rarely lag online n stufff.... hahaha.... pes is more party game...cos its more noob friendly....LOL....sorri ppl...but ya... hahaha...so its a tough choice... alternative n share or swop wif frens again loh... haha...save money.... i see ppl bank got so much$$ make me wan to save too...lol.... n nw saf dun support my expensive lifestyle anymore... haha...so got to shop n save liao....haha..though there is a few things i mus mus mus get one... lol.... hint 4 those coming my party if i have one...haha... in 2mths time... wallet....watch.... com....if it dies.... ff13.... n alot more stuff sia... haha... o my control control..... out of stuff to write loh.... haha.... shall write more stuff when my mental chao is finish n i find e direction n trueself....

OK~ JUS CHANGE E SKIN AGAIN... HAHA... at 5 am in e morning... haha... ntu rejection letter come loh... as expected... soon i tink nus will come soon...and i didnt apply sim... as i still cant make up my mind if business stuff is for me... so i have decided to wait for a year...hopefully things will b better next year... if not sim le loh... till den... shall learn driving first... get braces perhaps... learn english.... make it imbal-er den b4... n stuff i didnt learn b4... swimming, cycling and watever pop out...

hmm... as i came back to e real world after ord... u will realise tt no 1 man is irreplacible... becos of e great adaptability of humans... so if u leave 1 person's life he wont die... but its veri difficult to back in as there is already no place for u...

hmm... i m left with 1 wk of work before i m jobless again... haha... so i tink i shd jus make frens with her sia... haha... cos tink i m nt up to standard for her... so like tt loh... hahaha... still cant find e facebk or friendster...sianz... haha...

hmm... scary... haha... nus one still put processing appt... still got chance... haha... ntu one cannot see so... jus pray loh... if nt i tink i will b slacking 4 1 whole year sia... zzzz... but my year de place reali hard to get sia..sianz... at least common e leh....

haiz... jestyn say quite right sia... we kind of miss e old life... at least e ord mood part... haha...nt much to do... we noe wat to do exactly for almost everything... wander ard our seaside resort... go for run or wat... sbl or canteen.... got money n wkend to spend... haha... nw is confinement in another form... haha... cos no money liao got to stay home after work.... tis oso is a sucky routine... at least last time i got nt much stress from my boss or wat... haha... oc n csm too nice liao... haha... can do pretty much watever we like wif in e rules...

haha... anywayz... my work going to end soon 1 wk more... or mayb 1 mth more if they wan to extend... haha... shall use e money n pay my so call debts... tt alot sia though... zzzzz... haha... y still got so much to do sia... check every file... there is like at least 700 files... haha... all e ppl there so old one leh... onli got a few look near my age one... got one 88 one.... but haha... dun tink i wan to noe her too well... haha... so jus look loh... haha...

haha... shall continue to b stuck at hm ba... finish all my games first... buy so many haven complete one...zzzz...

hmm.... 1st day at work.... boring~ whole room onli me the whole day... actually tt place is kind of scary... the thing can kill u one....nid to see to noe wat i toking abt... anywayz.... den went to lunch... whole day i eat nv pay one sia....all my sister pay....=.= cos i working at the same place....eat mac...saw the new promo....12 pc chicken munchees... lol... sms her abt it but get a nt interested sms as alway... haha... sad tt things become like tt... but wat to do... haiz...i m losing alot of frens and making few.... lol....

haiz... o my... hmm... e other workplace dun nid will go loh...east coast sia sun... dun wan.... some more call me when i playing mahjong.... lol... e last work place isnt doing so well...but will cont'
....it's scary to see how much similarities... scary~

apr fool.... went back gy see the syf... got a silver as expected after hearing... heng they sound better there den in the band rm ah... lol... but everyone i dunno one... si liao loh.... reali old liao... o my..... shall start to slp early n wake up exerise loh... cant stand myself going back to b4 army... if nt i reali wasted 2 years.... no.......i wan ppl to see wat i see... becos its so dire... but most jus cant see it.... n i feel helpless when they dun... how?

i m cycling my content sia... lol... all tok diff stuff in a order...lol... haha... apr fool day.... if sm one still does read my blog... though i cant even remb ur old one though i tried to find but fail... happy apr fools.... hope u r happy... apr fool still a special day....

haiz..i wan my own com... my nephew one...zzz cant use much one..... sianz..... my room still cannot pack.... i wan throw my mom say her fren wan tis i wan throw there my mom wan to give fren tt... how? garage sale or smth la.... though we got no garage... ok... in e end still gotten my sis working place the job to tahan my huge expenses.... me alone can spend so much le... cant imagine next time how much i will spend with a gf plus 2 retired parents...hmm...nid a big job....so jus got to work hard nw... its sad tt ppl dun share ur views..... alot of thing oso got cycle one wat... lol...

anw,uni thingy settle liao.... so its environ, common , mech for both.... hope at least common or mech loh... sianz sianz... lets jus hope the atm trans worked...haha... haiz...went to work as a surveyer today...sianz....1 day 45 bucks nia...haha sianz.... n its quite a long survey to fill sia.... but onli nid to fill 8 sets... haha... so actually its 45/8 5.something per survey... haiz...so tink i will work with yq they all loh... if got time...since 45 buck pay check so cute sia nt nice... haha... make it 100 plus plus loh... saw the environment ard these blks in amk... kind of sad to see sia... some ppl living condition and situation is nt so nice... we nid to appre more our own family... dunno y mayb its sun... nv interview any teens sianz.... or my age one.... gals.... haha... onli saw one ah lian chio bus alone in her living room sitting on the floor in typical top and shorts.... lol...but too bad suppose to go odd number block nia sia.... sianz... got to skips hers....y~

hahaha.... these few day mini stun gun oso can stun me... y sia... sianz... 2ppl to accept my ideas... we can do it... come come come~ some ppl i jus dunno wat i did to offend them man... lol... ask a simple qn oso dun wan reply... sianz...so dunno shd go see syf tis year anot...dun wan to end up going alone... so eeeee....weird feeling....

haiz... 1wk after my ord... and still jobless...haha... sianz... it reali feels diff nt restricted by when u nid to book in when u got duty tt type of shit... haha... jus realise i left my bball n frisbee in camp...zzzz... sianz... haven apply yet... guess i will tok to a few more ppl den go apply... sianz sianz....

so tis is how it going to b... jus like wat happen to the band clique.. though nt so serious la 1 person nia tis time... tt time was 4ppl... haiz... wan to quit game go back last checkpoint oso cannot.. wont even reply at all sia... nvm... tink shall jus let b like the band one loh... well done kay heng... fren -1... lol... as i look at my frenlist... how many r reali gd frens man... n there goess 1...nice~

anw, hope she is alrite...sounded like a accident...if u r reading tis... go google colostrum or smth...tt thing is gd 4 healing... and jus sms me if u change the date of the test...so i wont wait like a idiot on tt day...

tml shall clean rm... haha... mus clear at least 50%

ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha...i c.... tt wat the guy on top is directingg me to....ok loh... let's to it...

ok... tink i mus b crazy or smth... make alot of wrong moves on alot of stuff..... but hope nw i m back to myself again.... 5 dayz to ord le... time flies man... many interesting stuff seen during these 2 years... met alot of different ppl... seen ppl from all walks of life... wed is oso the current batch pop haha... there goes my last batch... haha... hope u all go the rite places... fuck up ones plz dun go command sch plz... lol...

now i jus hope i can quit game and restart or go back to the last save point... give me one more chance....

ok... there is a few options for me nw.... first, retake gp, since i can take the time to work.... den got money liao go uni oso ok... but the bad thingy is i will noe no body.... reali no body.... lol.... 2nd, jus take my results and apply to all uni... those dun reali nid gp one... den go all the open hse go ask wat is the ah ga cut off pts for the course.... den there is the sim... can go wif daivd and bryan... last, eat shit and die... lol....

o man, kay heng i m amazed by u man... waited for the slightest chance ever till 5am last night.... so going to have panda eyes soon man.... totally ignored nw.... nice....i hate one sided....but got to try....

haiz... today results out, sianz sianz sianz sianz.... see the subs still ok phy b chem c math c but gp..... e8....knn... jus spoilts everything.... shing yong got acd b den eugene got acc a.... munchee got aacdc.... haiz... underestimated the difficulty of the gp paper... realise too late lack of use of the english language and practise..... haiz.... was hoping gotten better resultt one.... shd b the pracs.... its the first time and last time i enter a lab in 2 year plus... or perhaps is i use all my luck in the mahjong game yesterday....lol

in other news.... went hseto ask him abt admission stuff... played re 5... nice sia.... lol... shall buy soon if i got the money.... lol.... den went for the pri sch class gathering... lol... nt bad la got 9 ppl... cos most of them live jus next block or street....meet in bishan.... waste money eating swesens.... i dun like swesens man.... spell wrong sm more... sm more siying keep stealing my fries.... lol.... evil... all of them so fascinated abt the 'fa' tile phone strap.... lol.... apparenly to them its quite obscent with the tile having limbs and ass.... lol....

well, den went to eat icecream... or rather see ben eat ice cream.... lol... spend 40 buck on 5 scoop... lol... rich man.... den decided to go back liao... tis nid more efficient and effective organising man... haha... den saw the wu lu place... the mini bishan park... went there to crap.... all the weird stuff all come out.... lol... mini bishan park rapist.... lol.... anywayz... so tok till 12... lol... guess the next time see them shd b mar after i ord or jun to go night safari... lol.....

haiz... anywayz... got max to do a tarot reading thingy again since i m so free in camp.... 1 card got the moon... so its either we 2 have a veri veri big gap between us or there is hope... lol... another one is devil... lol... tell me to fight my inner evil...lol like ichgo like tt sia... lol.... the was alot of the ball ball thing... max say smth abt resources... money etc... ok... den got alot of wands... one say smth abt shy and stuff... one is abt ideas and innovation to get things going... smth abt torch... =.= tis part dunno wat max is saying....

haiz... seriously there is tis barrier or distance tt i can nv cross... try and try... but still and i m out of sorts... nv feel so strong for sm one b4 but tis dist jus make it feel so terrible... haiz... so i dunno how liao la... trying to distract myself so as to feel better... but... sadly... still cant do it... haiz... dun understand y make myself so miserable sia... cant slp at night... emo here n there... waste sms tt i noe wont get replies...but still hope tt tis time it will... if she wans can jus tell me tt we r jus gd frens nth more... den i will jus dash my own hope out.... i dun wan to lose a gd fren cos of tis type of thingy....

scary...

got quite a few weird dreams these few dayz man.... started from the 'bell boy' one... den there was tis one able me holding my results in my rm i tink... den see the result den at first look quite good but cant see a gd view of the words.... den tink tink tink realised the numbers r the pts for the grades... den got much worse den last time... den i was tink o shit.... how how how.... den saw the name on the top wasnt mine.... lol.... some one i dunno one.... mine dunno got printed version ma since i took private... oso dunno how to go abt getting it... its tis fri btw... haiz... kind of scare and relief at the same time... so see how is it ba...
anw, so today's dream was longer den the previous 2... the norm for my dreams ba... like many no link short stories... i forgot most of it liao but here is wat i still can remb...tink sm where in camp... or sch... or mix... den i look down cos there was sm one shouting... den he was shoutin like all the percussionist gather downstairs.... den i was discussing wif sm one... y nid to gather them sia... mayb they spoilt sm thing? anywayz went down den saw a band from afar... so dun tink belong there... den forgot sm parts... den reach a place like stairs/seats like stadium tt type... den there was alot of ppl... all gathered den there was sm one toking in front... den i was like going ard asking us or ansing stuff to ppl siting in ard.... den i tink saw au or smth... den there was tis teacher like person oso... i nv seen her b4... ask me wat m i doing... den i ans her smth... den we tok like she was a ex teacher of mine of smth like tt... but den she ask y my hair so long... den i said i cutting soon and still in camp haven ord cant let ssm see me wif long hair or smth like tt one...

den forget sm parts again... i was eating at a coffee shop with sm one dunno who... den walk back saw joycelyn, haven tok to her since i tink j2? haven seen her for a long time too... but anywayz sm how when shopping or smth wif her... den in a shop suddenly remb my bag was at the coffeeshop... den nv say anything to her i jus run back to the coffeeshop... lol.... den found my bag but the sling was covered in sludge or smth like tt sure disgusting one... den nv go back find her jus went e other way go back camp... lol... den was inside office... toking to jason e cos again... in vest slack... lol... and others whom i could focus on the faces... oso dunno tok wat shit den wake up liao... veri no link sia.... oso dunno tis dream got wat link from my life.... lol....

feel like going prawning again sia... but tink my money will run dry soon so shd save up... sign up the gst thingy late sia... lets hope i still both the amt... plz!! haha... my pay check is 225 nia... sianz... nid more nid more...

m i tt scare on the phone? lol.... saded... but nvm...

how?

had a dream yesterday of me closing a car door...mayb next time i m a bell boy? saw the reflections on the window of the car.... there was 1 more person rite in front of me...nope nt a nightmare.... is sm one i noe of... sm one:) anywayz... tt all to the dream...lol.... super short one... hope is a deja vu... tt would b nice... hope i m nt a bell boy though!

rot at home again.... haha... shall try clean my rm... so i can move in.... lol... its nt stayable nw...
try try try.... the door still shut....

2nd post...

ok... have decided to b more positive to life.... wahaha... shall stop my procas.... fully focus on the stuff i nid to do... no more slacking... tt oso means i will have to come home everyday if i am out of camp ard 12 plus or later... alway miss her online one.... i shall keep trying...till its done...

first post again...

haha... first post again.... every time scold my rec pentium one cos too slow/dumb.... tink i oso gone to tt state... blogskin thingy for the blog cant figure out at all!!! argh.... so shall stick wif the default one first...

tis wk another rotting wk... beside the oc evening was quite funny.... haha... imitating ehsan and stuff... plt 3 jus nv put in effort sia....knn....actually was tinking if i wan to help them anot some time back... play the saxophone or smth... haha.... i miss saxophone man.... haiz....

long time nv go back liao.... guess the coy commanders see me so slack oso gettin slack sia... haiiz... kind of worry how things will b as time goes by for them...

jus went to visit my ah ma in hospital.... didnnt catch much detail from my mom wat happened but saw her leg wrap like dunno wat... saw alot of other ah mas inside the same ward... jus make life look so frail... haiz... saw a pretty nurse....haha..... was in the same ward toking with the other nurses.... and originally onli my mom going to visit... but den my mom forgot to bring the bun thingy out... so i have to take a cab down jus to pass it to her.... jus hope ah ma recovers fast....

wa lack of exercise is taking its toll man... gettin fat... the run with the rec was.... haiz... time to train up again man....

haiz... i mus have problems reply and phasing my words in a sms...and understand things send to me...