Hmm

I guess what she wants is low maintenance friend or something. I m quite numb abit it alr.. it actually doesnt matter what she wants any more.. I no long have the energy to tink about how to keep conversation going, how to ask her out, how to make her happy. Run out of mana if you will. Perhaps she wanted this in the first place, I would never know cos I m too tired too figure anything out already. The hot n cold and the hot doesnt look hot on second glance. Some of my frens say she seems particular nice to me. Thats true but it seems like what I would call 抱歉的关心..

I shall jus keep a distance till the heart dies someday and keep this low maintenance friend thingy. I can do that. Besides this sem is pretty much make or break cos its 6 cores it will be difficult for everyone den its my chance to pull away from the crowd by working harder and then the we can talk abt upgrading the scholarship, internship & exchange etc.

Life requires me to take a change again it seems and I shall. I need to keep my focus this time around. Good luck Kay.

Repeat telecast

Well the story goes.. I didnt noe how but I like a gal that I only intended to be at most good frens with.. didnt even noe when it happen actually.. wasnt even on the radar.. the thing is somewhere along the line I see that she isnt the one.. its like just from a too different world.. so I have decided to be back on the good fren track.. as usual there is this veil of awkwardness now.. at least on my side.. And the what if department in my head keep throw ideas in.. when I m already sick of trying alr.. 2 person in that 1 that head of mine.. been trying to catch her so I can say that I reject myself and lets try b awesome frens instead.. but o well cant seem to catch up... o well.. but thru this I m slowly seeing what kind of gal I actually need..