so now how?

I think I haven blogged for ages, especially since i went back to school. I guess its Nov and everyone is feeling down, i tink is in our blood nov ppl will emo. tink come dec things will get better, i think when i put things in perspective, life is alot ez-er to live. If my frens can cope wif more complicated stuff, more commitment in cca stuff plus more stuff tt i dunno, den i can do it here too.

till now i still feel i not putting enuff effort in watever i do, band, sch, project.... hmm....

Something more positive, my 2.4 reach 10:30 alr, ie 1 more min to cut = 400 bucks.

To avoid the same things from happening again, I wont write any gossips on my blog alr, jus in case.

I was jus thinking recently if i went poly in the first place how would my life be. i enjoyed my jc days of cos, my band frens and sm class mates are sm of my best frens and i oso met alot of ppl like munch, alan etc.... jus i wasnt ready to put the effort required 4 the study side....so kind of regret abt it 4 a long time alr... sorry to sound arrogant, but its not cool to see ppl tt i noe tt is not all tt fantastic go uni and my other frens more brilliant and not in or narrowly squeeze thru...

i did not wan to do the same, so i m here in sp now....in order to show myself tt i still can....that y i everything oso go.... sch,band,spot, dip plus..... which = to no life...

i actually promised myself i shall focus on studies and join a veri lame club jus to earn cca pts.... but in the end still join band and again noe so many ppl.... steph say old ppl in band veri hard to keep low profile 1....now i noe wat she meant... brings me to wonder if i was jus like the rest a 17 guy or if no one knew my age how diff they would treat me....

which make me wonder....y i tink so much ah? LOL..... anw.... hope everyone mst can do well plz...