hmm which way?

Back from Korea, dun reali wan to blog about it... the tot of quit band slip into my mind again after seeing the gold with honors. But seriously, there is 4 tenor plus liyi and lucus den 6 alr... at most the band need 2... with 4-6 us means we have to play soft, and we r not pro enuff to maintain that volume with a good tone, everytime we play, i grinned, i cant stand the tone. end up tone was never in the rest of the tenors mind i dunno y... they dun take note of what i dunno...we r not used to playing loud plus tone plus soloistic... so most of our solos r jus notes... i tink quiting would help them alot. Furthermore, i got dip plus which eats up 1 practise every week, i hate the feeling of not knowing how to play and dragging everyone down... i irk the feeling... even with all the prac i alr dun sound nice, worse with the amt of prac that i would have... lastly, currently my family financially not doing well thank to my dad so no more traveling and wild spending for now, and i can teach tuition with the extra time. i only have 24 hrs a day 7 days week... something got to go... i m sick of being in such a judgmental place with obsoletes still around...seeing such a virus tormenting the grp alr... but i cant do much i sort of help the virus into them... guess kk was right so long ago... 这个女人不是一个好东. k abit mean but ya...