clouds

problems are like clouds, some r big some r small, some so fluffy u feel like dying... it might cover up ur whole sky... but on the side of the problem is the sun and clouds give us water just like problems give us experience... problems like clouds u can either whine about it or appreciate it...

random max... lol... k i have decided to go back to play for MD estimating that my things will get bz right aft it... guess if thr is anything i cant leave behind is saxophone even though i m getting from noob to noober... guess i got start self prac alr... hmm...

completed the garden with the GT... woot... tt concludes our project basically... like a happy only.

as for her well i dunno what to do seriously sia.. i guess shd run away in case i get hurt.. cos i reali dunno what she wan... no pt tinking so much... i m quite reluctant to fight for lost cause aft what happen the same period last yr... so... bye! sad love life... but everything else in my life like a nice only so i guess the guy up thr is very nice to me alr :)))

i left with 2 mths to try to get ippt gold for tt extra 200... LOL.... jyjy!!!

hmm which way?

Back from Korea, dun reali wan to blog about it... the tot of quit band slip into my mind again after seeing the gold with honors. But seriously, there is 4 tenor plus liyi and lucus den 6 alr... at most the band need 2... with 4-6 us means we have to play soft, and we r not pro enuff to maintain that volume with a good tone, everytime we play, i grinned, i cant stand the tone. end up tone was never in the rest of the tenors mind i dunno y... they dun take note of what i dunno...we r not used to playing loud plus tone plus soloistic... so most of our solos r jus notes... i tink quiting would help them alot. Furthermore, i got dip plus which eats up 1 practise every week, i hate the feeling of not knowing how to play and dragging everyone down... i irk the feeling... even with all the prac i alr dun sound nice, worse with the amt of prac that i would have... lastly, currently my family financially not doing well thank to my dad so no more traveling and wild spending for now, and i can teach tuition with the extra time. i only have 24 hrs a day 7 days week... something got to go... i m sick of being in such a judgmental place with obsoletes still around...seeing such a virus tormenting the grp alr... but i cant do much i sort of help the virus into them... guess kk was right so long ago... 这个女人不是一个好东. k abit mean but ya...

The Vast, The big, The fluffy , The soul

Hi all, haven blog for some time alr... was in Inner Mongolia for 2 weeks in Duolun county to help 治樹. The weather was really cold and dry, got to feed my skin with moisturizer and lips the lip balm but i got lazy some whr in between. Lowest temp we experience was as low as 5 deg. during the 蒙古包stay.

We start with a nite stay in BJ den followed by a 8 hr trip up the mountain roads to Duo Lun.

BJ and duolun is reali reali diff.. duolun are all the old sch shophouses in blocks but BJ are much more modern in their buildings and much faster pace. After that was orientating the ground whr gonna dig... up the 2 hills to see the awesome view and visualise how it as sand dunes and desert everywhr... soon we started work... reali enjoyed the blue sky, the clouds, the wind, the accompanying by everyone of the GT, the natural, and i didnt sweat for the digging part when i tot we would be sweating like mad.. aft tt was the putting in of the sapling den we realise we dig over our target and so we completed 1133 tree planting.. we took pics on the railway track that was beside the digging site when the sunset... the pics mus be so beautiful as the sun set! we had tons of food from day 1, was super adventurous for this trip... trying all the food and any food... but their oil, chilli, salt like free 1 sia... jus spam onli but overall i tink the food is still nice~ some are reali awesome... i can jus eat those day in day out... like the porridge plus the toufu! but sadly didnt get to try the some of the exotic stuff... we spent mid autumn fest as a grp in Duolun with the fireworks and the we mongolian mooncake... freezing but it was warm in the heart for such a fest...

after that we when ard touring and know abt the importance of duolun in the past and many other historic monuments to understand how history run its course here... get to reali know about everyone and reflect abt my life as well... i manage to complete all the goals i set out to do mayb except the 1 abt getting a gf... was tinking if 1 of them is possible but felt that she too high lvl alr plus like play play like tt onli.. she feel like a poison like the colours previously so shall not continue... the other 1... tt everyone think we got 1 leg 1... well i dunno that how so just see how ba...

overall i tink everyone grown and got closer... hopefully we could carry it forward... reali hope so...

a few exceptionally awesome ppl

adhi

only get to know him well during the trip, i can tell he is reali a good person with alot of passion in everything he do.. and he is able to see the little little things tt most ppl miss out... did the marking making our lives so much ez-er..

candy

my log boss that is gonna stalk this post later so i shd write political correct stuff for her... hohoho... Get to know her only during this trip, really glad to know her!! hahaha... very very nice person that alway tahan my randomness, nice nice girl to talk to... like a awesome only...

kai

fellow saggi... i tink she is reali very saggi... k sound wrong but ya... very awesome person... hahaha... like cool and pretty with the pink hair... hahaha...

azmi

reali awesome person that know and trying to enjoy and live life, someone that have substance, reali reali funny person as well dare to act funny and stuff. reali reali brother brother person...

nick

before the trip, my view abt him wasnt too good cos of the gossips n rumors abt him.. but my views abt him change totally during the trip. he is reali awesome... glad i didnt tok to him with a closed mind and now he a great friend...

hope i have grown enuff from this trip to tahan whatever the world have to throw at me... hopefully this isnt another 1sided thingy...

Hi life y u sho like tt?

Its the exam period currently, but next paper is 4 day later with a few chapters to study so guess i shall start studying tml.. just had prata supper with munchee.. she look different everytime i see her... lol... i no like find parking at thomson sia... actually i jus hate parking... very stress i feel... no wonder hongkong drama last time alway got show those ppl help u park ur car 1... haha.. though it was bery weird cos we haven tok to each other much for very long time and we nv tok to other ppl from the ogl grp much either so nth much to tok abt from my side i could tink of.. lol... but still very nice to see her.. hahaha... alway nice to see old frens... guess we are all getting old... she is in her last year in uni going out to work in a yr time or smth... wish her the best of luck... haha... awesome person there...

On other things, the world has alway been scary... its even scarier when no one is doing anything about it. a small part of me actually wish 2012 it true so it stop all these bullshit that is happening. the rest shall give my wishes that the world do have a future and life be better for everyone.. i guess life isnt so bad... if u look at it positively...

Sure hope at least sch side the money would come soon... zzzz... i onli got the 200 out my target 1750 in my bank currently to fund everything for my Mongolia and korea trip... zzzz...

first trip to Mongolia

5 Sep to 18 Sep to do reforestation and do my little part of helping the world and see China as part of the deal... not bad a deal huh...

2nd trip to Korea

Band exchange in korea! hope they dun own us... lol... uni band sia... some how i dun have good feeling abt tis trip but still will try to enjoy as much as possible b4 close shop for any trips till mayb grad...

aft all these... i would have visited 4 countries and 5 places all within this year... like a awesome only...

Hope the guy get some karma for bullying my godsis... where can like tt 1... disgrace to guys sia seriously, funny why gal alway like jerks... but still i rather not be 1... i have many names... perhaps too many, Father, son, old man, spp, uncle, awesome uncle, bro, korkor... guess i still missing 1... but no one would call me that i guess for a long time... i hope this 2 trips that i m going gonna be the getaway that i need to rid the feelings for the distractor... which i shd have done a long long time ago... weird tt eventhough we didnt go out much, didnt tok much, didnt do much but still like the distractor... but she is a pure saggi... uncatchable... maybe i shd be 1 as well like i used to be... life fun enough now anws.... guess i shall continue to on my radar for fun as per normal... tok to gals more than to guys as usual... and lead the no string attached kind of life... life of a saggi...

not bad i write alot of shit alr... forgot abt ibm... hahaha... 2nd ibm... those it was reali nice and well organised... great job lionel and cheryl... though the tuning problem is alway there... dunno if i shd play for md actually... i do wan to say good bye to the year 3 on stage of esplanade but... so many saxophone how sia seriously... i dun like to play soft btw cos of so many ppl have to soften down more den usual and not like i super zai soft still good tone like tt... very irritated if i got a poor tone... haiz... see how ba this 1... gyss alumini band... hope shai can play! hahaha... guess i still got not alot of link with they all yet... lol... guess only time can do such magic...

Change

Many things have change over the past year, me, my frens, the world. i know that change is the only constant saying but sometimes i wonder if it is for the better or for the worse. Sometimes i tink situations change doesnt reali affect as much as the change of heart and mentality. Cos i find alot of the people ard r as tired aft yr 1... but actually the workload actually didnt change tt much. jus we all got lazy and complacent. when i tink we shd be getting stronger , faster , better but nope... so i dunno isit good to let it be...

another change is that i am showing more of the Sagittarius side of me alr... but not exact showing a improvement in working hard... i m too good at dodging arrow and lazy at putting effort and soul into my work... which is frustrating cos i wan to get better but there is this constant auto lazyness... ugh.. hope aft my personality shift and stuff its over its a better me...
still the core remains though, i think about life alot, how to make it better while looking out for stuff are alr there and appreciate, i tink i m less complicated than alot of ppl. I drink occasionally but i only drink when i have to, if nt i would avoid. Club i dun club cos i tink its a waste of money to so call get into the 'trendy prefix' n i dun like to mix of ppl thr. i like to meet new people, tok to new people but jus to see new perspectives of life. i like to tok to ladies more den guys alot , but i mean nth at all sia actually, no like i got the looks for a hua hua gong zi... looks attracts my attention but its the heart n character tt can make me stay i realise. I m still looking but not so fiercely actually, i guess the guy up there alway have a plan but at least i have to look out for it right.. sometimes i m grateful about how i m... i m observant abt little things in life and appreciate them, and this makes me a forever optimist, inturn made my life ez-er to live n nt pass by like others would put it.

There is too much things happening in my life currently? actually not yet i feel but i m jus nt putting enuff effort to even match last year efforts. which is again irritating... i dun tink i m spreading myself too thin yet but jus nt using my time efficient enuff... the skillscan that i did in stanford and many other things make me realise mayb engineering mayb nt my thingy entire, i can do the things but it doesnt utilse my abilities naturally, jus tt i naturally feel i mus have standard in everything i do so i can get by exams assign n stuff still ok-ly... lol... so i looking for alternatives whr i can study actually i can be more tapped...

current happening, got back to play there, hahaha some how tt place tt we practise got the bwl br feel... no idea why... m very happy abt it... alway have the exile feeling no idea y...
going mongolia for ocip... reali like the grp i dunno y... cos it has reali awesome ppl... and the work its gonna test me but i noe i gonna like it... den 2 days aft i come back i will go korea with sp band... hope its gonna be awesome have my fingers crossed... k shall stop here due to the piling up of work...

Back

Time is starting to fly.. jus in a flash... i m back in singapore... its 1 mth since i left for US... its mid july alr... i lazy to tell to ppl that might or might nt b interested in the stories when i was thr so ask me if u are reali interested cos i dun wan to bore ppl out.

To sum it up though, i like the culture alot. both here n thr have its pro n con from the way we do things. but the way we do things are diff... the way we think is diff... its reali awesome to experience a totally diff culture eventhough we r so westernised but still thr r vast diff. i tink the whole experience reali have rekindled alot in me as a person. the brain is tinkering. i wan to b creative again. i wan to make changes again. i wan to explore and discover more. this trip is a starting point like colin have say. and i can see nt jus for me for many of my frens as well. its reali a pity tt mark didnt come with us cos i tink he would absolutely love it.

As usual a escape enable me to realign myself. to see my life in a new perspective. now its the time to send kiddo to slp and bring back u. no more hiding no more scare ofs.... let see what happens...

on other stuff... so so sorry if i didnt give anyone present cos i see present if i tink of u den i will buy... at most general stuff nia like choco which i have no space n $$ to buy alr... sorry sorry.

10 things i realise

1. i have a very opposite character and personality

2. my character is very saggi

3. personality is a advocate

4. result in a very weird me due to the conflicting qualities

5. my heart is very very very closed

6. my mind is very very very open currently

7. i shrink responsibilities like mad... when i shd b taken up more.

8. i noe what to do, say , think usually but it jus doesnt come out or come out right

9. i m riding on luck n potential alone, i need put more effort and go all out...

10. i m still very single :((( LOL...

i shall target diploma with merit tt means basically being top 2 person in my course... i shall do it... nearer target make it to the honor roll. i need to do more. i need to bring u out cursatory.

shall use my tumblr for the 2wk in US
http://cursatory.tumblr.com/