Rotting at the airport aft sending yubing off.. What a coincidence… Her good fren shiny ba.. The aunt or smth is actually my ex hr director :) haha Alway very nice to me 1… Haha saw her at the bk… Anw since now everyone rotting at polar now might as well do my aar… So here goes..

Let’s start from the beginning.. Jan 2010.. I was still in Mohh working as a admin temp to pass 1 year so I can apply for uni or if cannot go in den poly.. So I was quite low tt time… With no target n goal in sight at time.. Life wasn’t life then.. Jus slogging the routine for $$.. but at least the ppl there are still ok.. Feb the new year, the relatives crazy convincing me n my mom tt I shd go poly instead.. I guess tis was 1 of the most dreaded cny period I had.. I left Mohh tis mth too aft working for 7 mths here.. Mar, I was slacking while applying for poly, saw environmental management n water technology course in Sp.. Ard tt time hmm seems like what I can do.. Science plus math=engineering outdoor plus indoor work.. Color blind nvm.. Hmm so why nt.. I dun wan like the rest of my frens tt follow the usual go in uni do biz or engine if nt go uol sim do biz stuff.. Everything abt biz.. Considering my language cmi and everyone is doing it I guess nt my cup of tea behind a desk day in day out.. At least tt my impression.. I nid smth diff.. I dun tink i wan my life like tt.. I nid indoor outdoor.. On paper n on practical.. With dead stuff n with ppl.. I guess I made the right choice.. Apr was the start of poly life.. Was quite a experience even though being thru army alr.. Fun starting to know ppl.. I Alway like to noe new ppl.. May.. Didnt follow my plan abt cca.. Didn’t wan to join band becos I break for 3 years I not pro in the first place.. :( wasn’t my confident side n I noe will spend alot time.. Wanted to join sm weird running club or smth.. But I guess it’s fate.. Got 4 band ppl in my class.. All end up going band Tgt.. Jun.. Tis part was Reali blur.. Cannot remb wat happen.. Hmm fo camp? Haha was lots of fun.. Saw abit of band behind the scene drama alr.. Was Tinking whether I shd stay at tt time.. July No memory of anything special here.. Aug IBM , nite cycling cip n msia study trip.. Fun fun fun.. Munchee bday on IBM day if I nv remb wrongly.. Haha.. She won’t appear Anw… Sep, can’t remb anything.. Marina barrage event ba!? Oct nth much Nov.. Saw a new face in band.. Got Jj n chin Haow toking.. Was jus there with o ya nt bad ah.. Didnt see anything special though.. Liyi say is year 3 den I stun.. Lol.. Got to noe tt new face.. Hmm first impression.. Very Lian… And like to tell ppl what she like when no one was actually listening.. Hmm.. Dec.. Got to noe the new face slightly better.. Wasn’t gonna like her.. Heard sm story abt her.. Hmm wasnt good.. My bday.. Wasnt expecting to be tt good.. Timbre n had a fun time..in a long time.. Was toking to the new face otw there.. Hmm why she was there in the first place… Oya they tot I like tt y they ask.. I was jus Tinking.. But I tot would be super duper difficult.. What triggered it? No idea… Perhaps is the willingness to do the scandal stuff ba.. Then got Her bday, christmas n christmas eve..things got reali reali complicated i guess... or mayb not...

jan 2011

k let include the 3 mths to conclude the academic year... so jan... well there was musical delights didnt play as well as i wan but i still happy with the result.. i must work harder!! the whole thing was so tiring yet fun when i m with awesome peps...

feb 2011

its the chinese new year! mass visiting a few of the band ppl hse!! was reali reali quite fun... haha got the road trip at nite... ard tt time is the time i realise smth wrong... hmm... y the big fuss of smth she usually wont bother abt... was quite sad abt it then aft the 2nd time was huh? wth? =.= guess i m not as impt to her as she was to me... nonetheless feb was fun fun fun..aft the cny period was the exams reali reali didnt do well i tink...omg so disappointed with myself... i dunno what the sudden... ugh... i guess i mus double up the effort !!

so basically tt was happenings that i remb in 2010... there are many other things as well jus i cant recall all

sia sadly... anw... hmm... aar part of the year... well i guess i made a good start and a good change in sp... i guess cos everything is still basic then... so nt put in alot of effort still sufficient but 2011 is nt the case any more so i should unplug the invincible mentality put in effort and go for it... i wan my gpa to be 3.7-3.8 when i grad... i noe its going to hard but i m here for precisely tt purpose if nt y come poly kayheng plz constantly remind urself... i tink 2010 i reali reali spend alot... omg... i tink its time to money conscious... i wan more $$ for things tt i would enjoy much more den eating snacks during breaks!! so less of tt plz... so my holiday dun nid to spend alot of time running and all to burn the fats... i tink i m evolving... took the personality test again ytd in the airport... my personality is changing quite a bit... i isnt as nice as 5 years go i guess... effects of army n recent happening ba... i jus hope aft my personality has harden/stabilise ppl wont go away from me!!! I tink its the year that make me realise there is more i can improve myself... in every area... i tot i was at bottle neck at some alr.. while the others i m jus too lazy to change it.... guess 2011 is the year to make improvements... i used to hate changes and i still do in sm aspects... but i realise its alot ez-er to change urself than to change the world or hope the world suits u... its a impossibility... 2010 is the year tt i realise to be nice to me is reali difficult.. i dunno how my family tahan me all tis time sia... haha but i guess i will be nicer to my family! and its sad to see ur parents starting to get frail and things like tt... and me mus buck up n nt let them worry abt me... 2010 i see tt u jus nid to care abt ppl who care abt u and resonate with them fun and happiness...be there for them when they need you... the rest of the world jus show them minimum can alr... of cos i m toking ppl who dun give a darn abt you... being nice to a wall is useless no matter how nice u r... still jus a wall... 2010 let me realise alot of things and let me remb alot of things... i guess i will alway forget abt it 1... so i will make a list later and to refer to it!! hahah... abt after action regret... i guess i shdnt have like her so fast so furious ba... jus make my life miserable nia... when there are so many other ppl ard... but i guess she still taught me alot abt myself... cos she is like a female version of me sia... its quite amazing the similarities...so i guess i get to noe her for a reason... i guess she oso make me realise tt the colour system is nt a liking system ba... its jus a soulmate type of system tt i depend so much as a emotional support... i dun nid tt kind of support actually i realise... its cos of the lack of trust in myself tt y i would cling on other ppl for appreciation and things like tt... besides i tink ppl like me wont like me... so no point! guess i need smone who can stand my crap or at least make me slow down for them... i nid a queen... nt a princess i guess.... i guess the only princess i would wan in my life would my daughter next time... haha... i tink i confirm treat her super nice 1... if boy i wont be so nice... cos they nid diff type of upbringing i guess... anw its too early to tink of it sia... haha... 23 onli still got maybe 5 -10 years? gosh i m so old... haiz... hahaha... tis is one of my greatest regret if i have put in the consistent effort then where would i be now? somestuff tt has happened to me is happening to her actually... i tried hard to nag to convince to i dunno...but guess ppl like us wont listen 1... to stubborn alr sometimes... we have to experience failure ourself b4 we will learn guai 1...

guess tis is the year tt i realise i being the missing piece for many things.... the thing tt suppose to be there and nt there...cos of my lack of belief in myself... even if i got a plan, i noe what to do n stuff i will alway let others do first den if no one step up den i do... end up alot of things mess up n stuff.... so tis year i guess i step up and be counted ba... but will still use my strengths and avoid my weaknesses... k tired alr... guess i will continue when i wake up before going vivo to meet mark they all